Recent pointless murders in England.

This is going to be a quick blog really because I am pushed for time and I feel so hyper and NOT focused so maybe this blog will sound sketchy?.

I am beginning to feel so ashamed of England because of all these recent stabbings that have occurred, they seem so random and vicious and senseless, the case of Ben Kinsella brother to Eastenders star Brooke Kinsella,who was stabbed outside a bar in the early hours by teenagers!. The brutal killing of two French students Laurent Bonomo and Gabriel Ferez, who were stabbed in total 242 times and burned to death, a teenager who was tied to a tree and forced to drink petrol and then set on fire!, and I could literally name countless more victims of these incredibly evil and pointless murders!.

I don’t know which direction this country in going but the government really need to analyse the structure of its police force and legal system and until it does these killings will continue because there seems to be no guidelines or law to protect the innocent citizens of this country!.

I am stuck dumb each time the news reports another incident and can only feel saddened and ashamed of the place that I have lived all my life.

30 minute date then…. your dumped!.

OK OK that’s it I give up!!!!… I had an on-line date tonight, getting together with a guy I had chatted with on manhunt, he wanted to see me on my web cam so we agreed to meet on MSN. I had forgot that my cam will not work with MSN on my macbook so when he asked for me to switch it on I had to tell him that I couldn’t, everything was fine till I said that the job he did was predominately heterosexual ( road maintenance) he became confused and then refused to communicate with me!…DATE OVER!.

That’s it I really do give up with being nice to people when all I get back is negative shit!!! I don’t deserve it and it all makes me wonder if there are any normal, down to earth and sane men out there!!? Maybe I should become evil and twisted and a bitch?… but why should I let these abnormal freaks change me into something that I hate in others…. I am going to laugh and forget it because when all is said and done I’m far more superior and thoughtful than these senseless individuals!.

XX PEACE XX

The war between a nun and a porn star.

WOW yesterday I finished wallpapering the living room and now its looking nice although the process made me very stressed because I have never done the job before!. All those windows and doors with turns and holes and trying to get the paper on the wall was a nightmare, imagine me covered in paper paste sweating my tits off and flapping around in a pair of flip flops!….it was a strange sight I can tell you. By the end my shoulders were tighter than a nuns crack, and my face redder than a porn stars arse!.

I as literally running around ALL day and then I cooked some food and afterwards I posted some QUICK FLASH CREATIONS on flickr which I must say look very good considering that they were produced with isight on my macbook and then thrown in photoshop for a flash edit!. I’m liking this idea of producing images because at the moment I have NO time at all with the maintence work on the house and I can produce images at a fast speed which fulfills my creative urges! and sometimes great art comes from really impulsive and intuitive working processes.

Look my feelings are only normal!.

I dont know about anyone else but sometimes I feel like I am just a micro second away from flicking that self-destruct button and wallowing in the glow of self-pity!. Maybe its the years of depression that I endured during my adolescence that have marked me out to forever be “on the edge”, maybe its a gay thing! but don’t even think about using the words “internalised homophobia”!! im so pro gay i’m visible from Uranus!!.

Well I dont want to dig too deep for any explanations because these feelings of grand operatic self- absorption are experienced only rarely and when they become noticed I simply acknowledge them and move on,after all I am only human!.

Kill all spammers NOW!

Another vicious devil week has passed by smothering me in life excrement and leaving me with a pooh stained body!. The start of last week began with someone hacking into my hotmail account and sending all my contacts spam spam pissing spam!… so embarrassing and paranoid inducing!. People like that in my opinion should be instantly killed with a knife up the bum!… leaving to bleed to death in a pool of their bastard spam blood!. I had hours of mental and emotional turmoil wondering if they had infected my lush hot black macbook with a virus or worse maybe they had accessed my bank account and where wanking themselves with excitement in Harvey Nicks or getting their ugly retard faces lifted and botoxed in Harley street!.

The next incident was maybe not so stressful because it concerned my wayward sister who invariably goes missing when another boyfriend for this month takes here away for a few days. My poor mum was phoning for days and days and could only leave messages on her voicemail . After 4 days my mum was crying down the phone to me and I was literally hours away from calling the police and claiming her a missing person!. I knew she would turn up eventually but my mother was extremely concerned, then my sister phoned her without a care in the world later in the day and said that the mobile my mum was calling was now in the trash and she was using a new number but why had she forgot to pass the number onto my mother!??……..
I am NOT surprised by this because my sister is self obsessed and selfish…. its all part of her genetic makeup to be so bloody stupid!.

I am so glad that these sorry episodes are over and are now part of history, so maybe some new exciting adventures are on the horizon…. like all these hot men who want to sleep with me and use me for their dirty sweaty ways mmmmm…now there’s a thought!.

R.I.P Canal Street.

Canal St in Manchester has well and truly been shafted by Manchester council because they have agreed the go ahead for the building of the Origin complex which will effectively swallow up the bars and degrade the overall aesthetic quality that canal st has!. I personally feel that the uniqueness of the area will somehow be watered down and eventually lost in the years to come and be replaced with a homogenised homosexuality!

A computer generated image of what the complex will look like after completion

Please share your views on the issue.

Help please!! my friend keeps bleeding!

Well recently my friend has been bleeding and there seems to be no reason why such a thing such be happening and although he is in no immediate danger he would like the incidents stopped!. The bleeding is not constant and has only happened twice before and because no accidents have happened to cause it we are all baffled as to why this should happen at all!.
They always seem to come to light when he his lying down and never when he is standing up…and is NOT a result of any white fluid that comes out of his mouth!!!
If you have any answers to his problem please comment in the box below, we both thank you in advance!

I am not a heartless bitch!

OK… quick update.

Washing machine dies ****URGH!****HOOVER blows up ****BANG**** then broadband crashes ****CRASH!**** and the neighbours stole my portable washing unit****BOTTOM FEEDERS****

[------------------------------------>LIFE SUCKS!<-------------------------------------]

At least for a moment but then the realisation that I do not live in any of the recent affected areas devastated by extreme freak weather conditions brings back to me the actual reality of my situation and I am thankful for all the little things in life and that I should not over emphasise materialistic objects!

hOMoLickEr ©

Myspace friend needs medical help

The bank holiday started with me receiving an email from a myspace “friend” who I had been chatting with for maybe about a year and everything was fine up until about a month ago when I began to feel that I was only being use for tips on how to photoshop!. The email that I received was a reply from one that I had sent the previous day where I had said in a joking and playful way that maybe one day he would be as good as me in photoshop!

It was never meant to be taken seriously but because the person has addiction issues and he claims is bi-polar he completely took what I had said literally . He called me arrogant and self centered which is a joke considering all the advice i had given him…. I replied that seven years of art training at university I should be a little more accomplished than someone who at the time was a homeless alcoholic.

He now thinks he’s David Lachapelle because he has been snapping away for a year, this is what really pissed off because  I had to apply myself at art school  because at the time my father was being treated for cancer and the pressure of final show was tremendous, I feel that art saved my life and gave me a direction and I really put my heart and soul into the Degree course and to have someone who I have never met consider himself qualified to be on the same level as me artistically.

He is still extremely psychologically unstable individual and needs to think about where he is going in life because at the moment he is in a cul de sac with no where to go! I regret wasting my time and exposing my emotions with him but as with all things in life you learn from your mistakes, or at least you should.

Facebook.. what the ****!?

I have a myspace account which for the last 4 years has been a god send when things have either been really boring or I have need help and advice from someone, I have NOTHING bad to say about it!. As for facebook.. well I really dont understand it!?.

I have been a member for about 7 months now and up until this point I have only just dipped my little toe into it!. But the other I day I thought I would ask several people to be friends who were in one of my groups, well… you would have thought that I was asking for a kidney by the reaction from some of them!. One added me then realised that he didn’t know me personally and delete me within 3 hours!!!!… and I received messages from two others saying that they couldn’t place me and where did we meet!??.

what is the point of facebook if you only add the friends that you know personally because we have mobile phones and email accounts for keeping in touch with close friends and how are you to meet NEW friends when no one with add you??…. so many problems with facebook and NONE with myspace which is STILL the best social networking site on the internet!!.